Sunday, August 31, 2014
What went wrong? I let personal fear of the magnitude of the ride effect me. Instead of riding with excitement, and anticipation, I was riding scared, with fear and chance of failure.
I didn't drink enough on the way to Wachusett and paid for it during the climb. Very slow; thighs burning.
What have I learned? I can do it. Drink and eat more.
Now to find the opportunity to go again and kick that mountain.
Saturday, August 30, 2014
Thursday, August 28, 2014
I felt terrible, depressed. What was going on? Everyone makes mistakes, but these were .... Crazy. Silly. Stupid. Costly.
In clearing up my situation, yes I owned all of it, another AP person for a customer was making a error. I explained her confusion and she apologized. And we moved on. Simply.
So that begs my epiphany. How easy it is to gloss over the mistakes of others, but with ourselves, myself, I come down hard?
The resolution is not found in the question: Do they (whoever they are) love me still?
The question is: Do I LOVE MYSELF?
I realized this driving to work, returning to the lion's den, this morning. After pondering a bit, I had my answer.
Do you have yours?
An aside: wicked awesome bike ride the evening. Kicked out 30 miles with ease. Thank God.
Wednesday, August 27, 2014
Tuesday, August 26, 2014
Monday, August 25, 2014
Mass. Then took my bike to the shop at noon. No easy feet with a tender back, but it was worth it. The gentleman at Landry's adjusted my derailleur, tightened the cables and lubed my chain. No charge.
The walk, though slow was great and I discovered my back felt normal as long as I was moving. Thank God. I was healing.
Last night after all my deliverables completed I took a back pill and went to bed.
Which leads me to this morning's blessing - a short ride. A ride I thought yesterday would not be happening on my well adjusted bike which rides like a dream. And my back, it's still tender but not nearly as strained as yesterday. Thank God.